“I remember not having enough food and being hungry a lot. We were little kids and we’d be up
from 3:00 am, sometimes earlier, and breakfast wasn’t til 8:30 or 9:00. Maybe this is what got
a couple of us eating Crest toothpaste and our teacher’s cocoa-butter stick. If we were caught eating
toothpaste, the teacher would squeeze 1/4 or 1/2 a tube of it onto our plates and that would be our meal.”
ISKCON Destroys a Whole Generation of Devotee’s Lives
None of us escaped being abused…
and no one helped us…
and no one protected us….
and no one believed us…
and no one listened!
I HAVE SO MUCH PAIN IN MY HEART!
letter from gurukula vetren
“I have so much pain in my heart…. So much pain and tears… If you could just see what you have done to me.. to us…. All in the name of worshiping Krsna…. Well now krnsna can kiss my suicidle ass! Cause that’s all I think about is just ENDING my miserable life…. Everyday I have to find a reason why I should stay. I have nothing but you and all your Gurukul Vetren.”
The pain you teachers and gbc put me threw……the isolations, segregating me from my parents and family……all the times i was molested and then finally raped YOU the devotees and your PHILOSOPHY said it was my fault my karma….at the age of 8 or nine my gurukula teacher told me to thank krsna that this man violated me now and not later, that i was paying for my karma, i must have done the same in my past life to a child and now i must accept what happened as krsnas mercy, tell that to my badly swollen 9 year old hairless vagina! another time at 10 it was my fault cause to many bramacharies had crushes and any prabhupada said woman are the fire and men are the butter…..believe me there were many molestations and tons of excuses AND NO ONE PROTECTED ME! NO ONE!!!!!!!!!!
how many of our molesters got found out and just moved around to another temple by the GBC to avoid prosecution….HOW many GBC’s are molesters them selves!
my nightmares and daymares is all i have now…..you people completely PHUCKED ME! i worshiped the ground my teachers and elders WALKED on and all i got was hit called a prostitute all the time, for like not covering my head or looking at the bramacharis as they danced all around the temple like horny bulls!…..I cant believe the things you people made me do……drinking foot juice from bavananda another molester! or when i spilled my food i had to eat it off the floor and my juice or milk to….cause its prasadam, you people treated me like shit and cant even do right by me.
you’v done some evil and just plain TERORizing things to me and to my godbrothers and sisters. I watched, i witnessed all the abuses……no exgeration here Anutuma. You are the spokesperson for a bunch of child molesters and control FREAKS.
i have so much pain in my heart….so much pain and tears..
if you could just see what you have done to me.. to us….all in the name of worshiping krsna….well now krnsna can kiss my suicidle ass! cause thats all i think about is just ENDING my miserable life…. everyday i have to find a reason why i should stay. i have nothing but you and all your tortures to keep me crazy….
i sit here remembering all that anutama has said, all that ISCKON has done to me. i just want to die.
why did you do this to me. why?
gurukula vetren.
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Readers should be informed that this young lady has already apologized for her strong language against Sri Krsna and Srila Prabhupada. She is a victim of ISKCON’s paedophilia protection racket, and should be given our full support.
Had ISKCON made as much noise about the monsters who raped children as they do about plans to protect assets, their concerns would have been self evident.
As it is (even though management has admitted awareness of the crimes), there has never been a single case where ISKCON has prosecuted a predator. Not in the past, nor at this present time. To the contrary, they have given protection, even given office to known offenders.
ISKCON will find very little sympathy (if any) in the public eye. This is the single most concentrated case of child-abuse in the history of man. To believe that material assets will be spotlighted, is just another ISKCON illusion. ISKCON’s accumulation through expansion program may get some air, and its techniques of psychological slavery may be exposed. Other than that, the rape and abuse of its own children will take center stage. (SGd)
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Thank you for your words… believe it or not i dont mean at all to be offensive to KRSNA or SRILA PRABHUPADA, but all that I was taught through my abuses was out of this Devotion for Them.
When they punished us or locked me in the dirty kitchen/closets it was Prabhupad’s tape they played behind the door all day till they saw fit to let me out…. Sometimes the girls would slip chapatis under the door for me….
When I tell you that I can not even hear/see or smell anything devotional because I become physically ill, like nausea, cold sweats and crying lots of crying….
Sri Krsna AND Srila Prabhupad has been CRAMED down my throat and now what ever beauty you all seem to see, i just cant see it…. To much pain….
Whether i was misinformed about the true essence of Vaisnava life or not, I am ruined for life by it….. I am A Survivor no doubt……. and there are many of us out there.
So though I mean not offend you there is the other side that is just so angry. At the MisUse of your gods name and of his supposed pure devotees….and the need to sound respectful towards them now….is so hard for me…..confusing…..impossible….
I am a product of all the glorious bull….. If there is a Krsna out there then He knows who I am….. where my heart is and where I came out of…… and I think He is much more merciful then we all think and He would understand my anger even if misguided threw teachings and abuse……
I dont know anymore who is up there but I know His love was not supposed to be like this…. From my Sad heart to yours I mean no offence…. I just need so badly to be HEARD for things to change and for JUSTICE…..
Thank you for every ones concern, it’s almost surprising…. because I just have read so many negative things written about us and it comforting to know NOT everyone is blind, that there is compassion among some of the devotees…. Unlike how i was raised. i am just in so much pain and doing all I can to make sense of everything.
Of course there is no sense in it, it was a crazy mans life.
I just want Justice…… now in this lifetime.
Gurukul Vetren
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UNDERSTANDING CHILDREN’S GRIEF
(an ex-child’s experience fwd to pada)
From: ******@aol.com
Date: Fri, 30 Jun 2000 19:17:09 EDT
Subject: children’s grief
To: angel108b@yahoo.com
I live only miles away from the temple I grew up in. I have never been contacted in any way, and just found out about the lawsuit on the news. I hope this does completely ruin the devotees. Don’t let the door hit ya on your way back to India, where you belong. This cult belongs in a country where women and children are not important. Family means nothing to devotees. Sad really…….
Like I said though, I am living only miles from the temple I grew up in. This is the temple I was raised in, this is the temple I gave myself to in every way, even ways I did not want to. I gave everything to this god ….everything I could at the age 4. My world revolved around pleasing these *** holes who raped me. I came to believe the abuse was normal. I gave my heart, my soul, my love, my body to these people. What did they expect of a child?
The memories are coming back so vividly now. I have been away from the movement for fifteen years, I put it in the back of my head, and I went on with life. I conformed to the “kharmis” because I had to survive. I was dropped in the real world in fifth grade, terrified of the kharmis, but so glad to be away from the devotees.
What the hell were they thinking? No cult can stay alive for long if the children are desperate to leave. Most of us hate the ground the temples stand on, and have dismissed a majority of the beliefs, simply because of our anger. After fifteen years of trying sooooo hard not to remember, I find myself thinking of little else now. It has consumed me completely lately. I was driving down the highway, and a flashback almost made me wreck my car. What a life we get to live now thanks to these *** holes.
Those jerks took so much from us. They took away the joy of love-making from me. Because my little baby body was messed with so much at such a young age, I will never be able to enjoy love-making, I will never desire for my husband to touch me. While the emotional desire is there, the act of love-making sickens me, and hurts terribly. I have had to have surgeries performed because of the pain in that area.
So, you jerks …just as you spit upon me as a little girl, now I will spit upon your faces. Go to hell. I hope and pray, even if I cannot find the strength to join the lawsuit, I pray that your temples ALL have to be sold! I hope all of you guys, and ladies that allowed the abuse to go on, will also burn in hell.
I don’t know anymore who God is…I know there is a higher being, and I know that being will not let those bastards get away with what they did.
BURN!!!!!!!! BURN!!!!!!!! BURN!!!!!!!!
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Effects of Child Sexual Abuse on Victims
For victims, the effects of child sexual abuse can be devastating. Victims may feel significant distress and display a wide range of psychological symptoms, both short- and long-term traumata. They may feel powerless, ashamed, and distrustful of others. The abuse may disrupt victims’ development and increase the likelihood that they will experience other sexual assaults in the future.
In the short-term (up to two years), victims may exhibit regressive behaviors (e.g., thumb-sucking and bed-wetting in younger children), sleep disturbances, eating problems, behavior and/or performance problems at school, and unwillingness to participate in school or social activities.
Longer-term effects may be wide-ranging, to include anxiety-related, self-destructive behaviors such as alcoholism or drug abuse, traumata, anxiety attacks, insomnia and suicide.
Victims may show fear and anxiety in response to people who share characteristics of the abuser, i.e., the same sex as the abuser or similar physical characteristics. Victims may experience difficulties in adult relationships and adult sexual functioning.
Survivors may feel anger at the abuser, at adults who failed to protect them, and at themselves for not having been able to stop the abuse.
Victims may experience traumatic sexualization, or the shaping of their sexuality in “developmentally inappropriate” and “interpersonally dysfunctional” ways).
Victims may feel betrayed and an inability to trust adults because someone they depended on has caused them great harm or failed to protect them.
Victims may feel powerless because the abuse has repeatedly violated their body space and acted against their will through coercion and manipulation.
Abusers may cause victims to feel stigmatized (i.e., ashamed, bad, deviant) and responsible for the molestation.
Victims of child sexual abuse have higher rates of revictimization (later sexual assaults) than non-victims.
Some victims with proper counselling may appear to be free of the above symptoms.
Studies on Child Sexual Abuse document that 63% of women who had suffered sexual abuse by a family member also reported a rape or attempted rape after the age of 14. Studies in 2000, 2002, and 2005 have all concluded similar results. Children who had an experience of rape or attempted rape in their adolescent years were 13.7 times more likely to experience rape or attempted rape in their first year of college. Those with a prior history of sexual victimization are extremely likely to be re-victimized. Some research estimates an increased risk of over 1000%.
A child who is the victim of prolonged sexual abuse usually develops low self-esteem, a feeling of worthlessness and an abnormal or distorted view of sex. The child may become withdrawn and mistrustful of adults, and can become suicidal. If the pain of sexual and emotional abuse becomes unbearable, the victim does not want to live anymore and commits suicide. “I just want to die“.
IskCon Guru Lokanath Swami NASTY, VILE PEDOPHILE touching innocent girl’s crotch
The girl (Satya devi) who was sexually and emotionally abused by Iskcon Guru Lokanath Swami explains her ordeal:
Lokanatha swami molested me (Satya dasi)
July 11th, 2010
Hari bol,
I am the girl that Lokanatha touched inappropriately. It did NOT just happen one time in the living room, on the sofa, but rather throughout the week that he stayed he touched me various times inappropriately. I am surprised now (at age 32) that that NASTY, VILE PEDOPHILE did not try to rape me.
He took my innocent father’s words of “she is growing up here in America, why don’t you teach her some more Indian culture” and turned into his way of taking advantage of me. He called me various times through out that week (it was Easter vacation so I had off), and it was hot, so I was wearing shorts. I was 11 and 1/2 years of age. I sat down next to him after he insisted many times, and he decided he would teach me how to play the harmonium. He several times, rubbed his hand up and down my leg, inner leg, and out, as I was seated there next to him and the harmonium. I asked him “what are you doing?” to which he replied “nothing, just concentrate on the harmonium.” I cannot TELL YOU HOW HORRIFIED AND DIRTY I FELT inside.
Through out the days, he then once woke me up singing “jeeva jago, nidra chadi uttha jeeva” and when I got up ( I was wearing shorts), he patted me on my butt. I ran into my mother’s room, and into her walk in closet and hid, and he came in after me. He pulled me out, saying “why are you hiding” and again touched me on my butt, held my hands and put his arms around me.
Again he called me for harmonium lessons, and then when he touched me inappropriateley AGAIN on my leg, I got up and ran into the kitchen and went to my mother who was cooking prasadam for this ASS. I went to my friend Sangeeta’s home later that day to play, and I told her he disgusts me, I don’t like him, and I don’t like the way he touches me. He makes me feel so dirty. She didn’t know how to react, at age 8, but she said just tell your mother.
The next day, he called me in the living room, and asked me to bring the Krsna book and read it to him. He had me sit RIGHT NEXT TO HIM, leaving no space between us. He PLACED HIS HANDS ON MY CROTCH, NOT ON MY LAP, and said I am keeping the book from touching you there, so just keep reading. He kept his hand there, and any time my mother would walk by the room,he would QUICKLY REMOVE HIS HAND AND PLACE IT ABOVE MY HEAD (around me). He did this several times throughout the course of an hour, and after that sick feeling inside me became the most prominent thing for me, I told him I was tired, and I left the room.
The day after that, some of his bogus followers were there at our house, and when I came inside from playing with my friend (having a dirty feeling inside me the whole time), the ASS had a nerve to call me several times to sit next to HIM in front of everybody. I told him NO!, and ran away.
Thank GOODNESS the nasty pedophile left the day after, and when my dad suggested I touch his most UNHOLY DISGUSTING FEET I SAID NO! I will not. I told my mother about everything the night before, and she was shocked, disgusted and appaulled at everything.
What could a defenseless 11 year old child do? Just say no, and tell her mother. There was no legal actions that I knew of at the time that I could take. If I had known how to kick that ASS in his groins to teach him a good lesson, I would have. But I didn’t know at the time what to do.
Yes, that silly investigation happened by Yashoda and she just followed me around the house, asking me where this and that happened, and how this and that happened. We WERE PROMISED THAT LOKANATHA would be punished. He was NOT.
His stupid misled followers still blindly followed him, and accused me of lying.
I will never forget what I have been through.. Till this day, Ravindra Swarupa, the head of our nearest temple, acts like nothing happened, and was nonchallant about the whole thing. He has always had a cold, DISRESPECTFUL approach towards our family. We trusted him, and he nor the GBC (garbage committee) never followed through. BUT THAT IS OK, THE LAW OF KARMA AND LORD SHRI KRISHNA WILL. That is who THEY will have to answer to ultimately.
PLEASE POST THIS TO YOUR WEBSITE. I have remained quiet long enough. I will not be quiet any longer.
Thank you, Satya
Posted by Satya Devi July 13, 2010
Dear PADA,
Thank you for your exposure to the truth, and for posting the DEFENSE of THE TRUTH.
I wanted to reply back to July 13th, comment by SG: I never let it go, and I never EVER thought it was right or OK. Even at age 11 I knew it was wrong, it felt wrong from the core of my being, and that is why I told my mother, my sister and brother, my family. I never intended that this would get stretched out. My brother in law even tried to bring this out into the open, and he and my sister were chastised for this. I was very young, and I took the words of my brother to “let the Law of Karma and Lord Krishna take care of this.” By the time the GBC came around I was 15.
The whole situation felt so dirty and wrong, and as an adolescent, I took the advice of my elders. At that time, though it felt wrong, I didn’t fight it aggressively, and my family wanted to take the “humble route.” Though I appreciate their trying to be humble, there is a TIME AND PLACE TO BE HUMBLE AND THIS WAS NOT ONE OF THEM.
At age 32, I can NOW SEE THAT. And I have quietly sat back, and watched the nonsense that has been going on in the movement. I saw Lokanatha/Joker natha at the NYC and Gita Nagari Rathayatra. I wanted to SPIT IN HIS FACE. That ass had the allowance to give lecture, to sing, and to sit on the cart and do arati to Lord Jagganatha.
I hated him when I had to see him in public. And to see that this was his punishment? Being given articles to write in BTG, being given accolades as a guru, getting all the priveledges of a sannyasi– this was what his punishment was??
OUR SILENCE WAS OUR MISTAKE — OUR SILENCE WAS WHAT ALLOWED HIM TO SLIDE BACK into NORMALCY, GOING UNNOTICED FOR HIS CRIMES that are DUE FOR PUNISHMENT.
HOW DARE HE. AND HOW DARE THE GBC. THEY WILL ALL HAVE TO PAY.
The SILENCE has been broken, and after seeing all this nonsense, no more silence. It has been a LONG TIME COMING for the TRUTH to BE TOLD and SPOKEN.
Satya
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Posted by Satya Devi July15, 2010
To Puranjana Prabhu and to all those who have reached out and encouraged me with your support:
Hari Bol Prabhu, I thank you humbly, and whole-heartedly. It is not easy to come out alone and speak about such things, especially in the same community which I grew up in. However, I know I am supported in many ways. I have Lord Shri Krsna on my side, not only in His own Form, but, also in the Form of Truth.
I also have actual facts, the actual investigation, to support me. I have the support of strong, protective God brothers and God sisters, and, most importantly, I have great devotees and true leaders, such as Puranjan Prabhu and his medium of this powerful website, which SHOUTS OUT THE TRUTH on my side.
These miscreants cannot hide any longer. It is so sad what they have done to Srila Prabhupada’s movement, to his legacy, and to what he endeavored for years to create.
It truly is like the Mahabharata, and Bhishma Pitama has passed away, leaving squabbling petty fools to fight stupidly, and to help defend his legacy and the TRUTH, fighting back are strong, stalwart, brave beings such as those who have voiced themselves against the wrong-doings of such people such as Joker Natha, and various other demoniac beings in this movement.
I thank you, Puranjana Prabhu, for your efforts to protect the innocent. I thank all of those who have extended their support to me. As your younger God sister, it is a blessing to have you and your support.
Jaya Srila Prabhupada! Jaya Narsingadev!
Hari Bol, Satya
The Official GBC Version of Lokanatha Maharaja’s ‘Fall’
BY: RAGURAM DAS
While all the focus is on the GBC report on Satsvarupa, it is quite interesting to read the GBC report on Lokanath Swami made a few a years ago. Many questions can be asked, as the report raises questions for disciples and for ISKCON itself.
From: Bir Krishna Goswami
RE: Copy of message to GBC conference
“Dear GBC members, It is my duty to inform you of the actions of a special GBC subcommittee that dealt with a confidential investigation of Lokanatha Maharaja. The members of the subcommittee are: myself, Badrinarayana Prabhu, Mukunda Maharaja, Sridara Swami, Virabahu Prabhu, and Ravindra Swarupa Prabhhu.
It is important that you be aware of the decisions and findings of the committee so that you can properly deal with rumors that are circulating.
Please understand that those matters are strictly confidential. I am requesting each GBC member to not show this message to anyone else. Also please erase this message after reading it.
Madhusevita Prabhu asked me to add the following: “If a GBC member is detected as having printed or disseminated this report in an unadvised manner he may be subject to censure by the Ex Comm.”
Here are the details:
“In 1990 while staying at the house of a family for a few days Lokanath Swami (Swami x) touched a young pre-adolesent girl in an inappropriate way by putting his hand on her lap. He was sitting next to her on a couch in a families living room, both were holding the Krishna Book in their hands, the hand holding the book (the back of the hand) rested on her lap as he read the Krishna Book. The hand did not move.
In 1993 when the GBC chairman became aware of the incident and appointed a committee to deal with the issue, Swami x was also told to stop all initiations.
The committee conducted a thorough investigation, which included bringing a team of professional experts in New York and involving Mother Yasoda. The cost of the experts exceeded $2,500 for a four day intensive assessment. The experts made an in depth examination Swami x after which they concluded that this unfortunate incident had occurred because of the Swami x’s complete lack of prior experience on the matter of dealing with women. Having learned his lesson (the need to follow the proper social conduct for a sannyasi) they were confident that this incident would not reoccur. They also stated that he had the proper nature of a spiritual leader and should be allowed to continue in this role within our society.
An apology was made by letter and in person to the girl and the family. They were satisfied.
The GBC committee concluded that this deviation from the acceptable conduct had been accidental. So in 1996 after Gour Purnima, he was allowed to begin accepting disciples again.”
It was concluded this year in Mayapura that all prospective disciples of Swami x would be given the history of the above.
Bir Krishna Goswami
Bir Krishna Goswami
Protector of child molesters,
Protector of VILE PEDOPHILE Sannyasi’s
According to Bir krishna Goswami, It is Okay for a Sanyasi to molest a child and then write an apology letter because sanyasis like Lokanath Have no experience whatsoever on “women issues” and even if they do it intentionally, then as long as they learn their lessons then they are fit to accept disciples. Sorry Bir Krishna Goswami, That’s not how it works in the spiritual world. That’s not how it happens in Vedic culture maybe in the GBC (Goonda Body Commision) culture but definitely not in the Vedic culture and definitely not in Shreela Prabhupad’s Dictionary.
But sir, it was an accident!
“Lokanath Swami’s Pedophilia Covered up by “Accidental” Bir Krishna Goswami’s purport
So According to Bir Krishna Goswami’s purport, Lokanath’s sexual adventures were completely accidental since “The experts made an in depth examination Swami x after which they concluded that this unfortunate incident had occurred because of the Swami x’s complete lack of prior experience on the matter of dealing with women. Having learned his lesson (the need to follow the proper social conduct for a sannyasi) they were confident that this incident would not reoccur.”
If you molest children and touch their private parts then fear not. Bir Krishna Goswami will give you protection. After all, a sanyasi who touches minor girls like a pedophile only needs to write a apology letter. Then he can accept disciples and guide them back to Krishnalok. Bravo Bir Krishna Goswami. –
Bir Krishna Goswami since you protect chid molesters, you will imbibe the same sin of child molestation punishable by Yamaraja. You are as vile as your fellow vile friend Joker Natha. And yout title as Goswami is also a joke as well. GO SWAMI GO — No, it does not mean that you are a cow-swami. That would be an offense to all the cows. But it rather means that you will eventually GO AWAY SWAMI to Yamarajas place.
Thank you,
Satya
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