Purport to Amara Jivana

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Srila Prabhupada: Amara jivana sada pape rata nahiko punyera lesa. This is a song sung by Bhaktivinoda Thakura in Vaishnava humbleness. A Vaishnava is always meek and humble. So he is describing the life of the people in general, taking himself to be one of them. The people in general are like the description given here.

He says that, “My life is always engaged in sinful activities, and if you try to find out, you will not find even a trace of pious activities. Only full of sinful activities.

And I am always inclined to give trouble to other living entities. That is my business. I want to see that others are suffering, and I enjoy”. Nija sukha lagi’ pape nahi dori. “For my personal sense gratification, I do not care for any sinful activities. That means I accept any kind of sinful activity if it is satisfactory to my senses”.

Daya-hina swartha-paro. “I am not at all merciful, and only I see to my personal interest”. Para-sukhe duhkhi. “As such, when others are suffering I become very happy, and always talking lies”, sada mithya-bhani. “Even for ordinary things I am accustomed to speak lies”. Para-duhkha sukha-karo. “And if one is suffering, that is very pleasant to me”.

Asena kamana hrdi majhe mora. “I have got lots of desire within my heart, and I am always angry and falsely prestigious, always puffed up with false pride”. Mada-matta sada vinaye mohita. “I am captivated in subject matters of sense gratification, and almost I am crazy”.

Himsa-garva vibhunana. “My ornaments are enviousness and false pride”. Nidralasya hata sukarje birata. “I am subdued, or I am conquered by sleep and laziness”, sukarje birata, “and I am always averse to pious activities”, akarje udyogi ami, “and I am very enthusiastic to perform impious activities”. Pratintha lagiya sathya-acarana, “I always cheat others for my prestige”.

Lobha-hata sada kami, “I am conquered by greediness and always lusty”. E heno durjana saj-jana-barjita, “So I am so fallen, and I have no association of devotees”. Aparadhi, “Offender”, nirantara, “always”.

Subha-karja-sunya, “In my life, there is not a beat of auspicious activities”, sadanartha manah, “and my mind is always attracted by something mischievous”. Nana duhkhe jara jara. “Therefore at the fag end of my life, I am almost invalid by all such suffering”. Bardhakye ekhona upaya-vihina, “In my old age I have no other alternative now”, ta ‘te dina akincana, “therefore by force, I have now become very humble and meek”.

Bhaktivinoda prabhura carane, “Thus Bhaktivinoda Thakura is offering his statement of life’s activities at the lotus feet of the Supreme Lord”.