One who is in Love with Krishna, he wants to see Him

Prabhupada, New York, November 23, 1966: […] Because we are always after sense gratification, so if Krishna is not a order-supplier, then one rejects Krishna. We want God, or Krishna, to be our order-supplier. So we must order Krishna, “Give me this. Give me that. If You cannot give me, then what are You, Krishna? I don’t want You.” This sort of bhakti, or devotional service, is not accepted by Krishna.

Just like Mr. Sulye, our Godbrother, German, he told me personally that during wartime many German women, some, they prayed into the church to get back their husband, son or brothers, because all went to war and nobody returned.

And they become atheist: “Oh, there is no God. We prayed so much to God to get back my husband, to get back my brothers, but they are dead.” But the brother was not returned and the husband was not returned. So result was… So if we pray, go to Krishna with that purpose, that He should be our order-supplier, then there is no question of Krishna-bhakti. We must fully surrender, fully surrender: “Let Him do.”

Aslisya va. That is taught by Sri Caitanya: Aslisya va pada-ratam pinastu mam marma-hatam karotu va adarsanat. Aslisya va pada-rata: “Either You embrace me or You trample me down on Your feet, neglect me, and You make me broken-hearted, and not being present before me all the life…”

Aslisya va pada-ratam pinastu mam marma-hatam karotu va. Marma-hatam means “If You make me broken-hearted… I love You so much. I want You, but You never care for me. That’s all right. Still You are my worshipable, unconditionally. I don’t want any return from You. Still You are my worshipable Deity.”

This is pure devotion. Krishna takes all care. Don’t think… Because He says personally, aham tvam sarva-papebhyo moksayisyami. Why should you be so anxious? But one who is in love with Krishna, he wants to see Him, he wants to love Him.

But even He does not present Himself before the lover, the lover says, “Oh, still, You are my lovable object, worshipable… Whatever You can do… You are… You are free to treat me as, as You like, but You are my worshipable…” This is pure. So as soon as we come to this stage, that is perfection. That is perfection. Don’t expect anything, return.

Full Lecture: New York, November 23, 1966